How does an engineer end up
living in Thailand

Now I was in a city in northern Thailand, sitting at a coworking table with new friends, without much to do, but with a lot to explore.

For the first time in my life, nobody expected anything from me.

That day, my friend Danny —whom I had just met weeks before— suggested that a few of us do an LSD journey in the mountains of Chiang Mai.

For me, drugs had always been a big NO. Even though I would get wasted drinking alcohol (which is another drug).

Danny explained that LSD is not just another drug. It's a psychedelic substance that alters your state of consciousness. Unlike other drugs, it's not used recreationally, but as an inner journey of self-discovery.

At that point, I was beginning to discover who I really was.

Because until I left everything, I had been living on autopilot. Living a life that made other people happy, but that left me completely empty.

So I said to myself: let's try it!

The next day we booked an entire compound in the middle of the Chiang Mai mountains. Four friends, nature, zero expectations, just the present moment.

I can't explain the experience in words.

What I can tell you is that in that moment I saw myself without masks for the first time in 33 years.

I saw all the crap I had carried to fit in. Every time I silenced what I felt. Every decision I made from the fear of rejection, not from what I truly wanted.

And I also saw something else:

that when I stopped resisting being who I was, everything flowed.

My rigid engineer mind changed forever that day. I understood that there were things that can't be explained logically, but that are there.

And the most important one: everything is energy. And when you change your inner energy, your outer reality changes.

Over the following months I became interested in astrology.

Several months later, I was working as a freelance web developer and in one of my meetings with clients, I told them about my experience and my new interest. It turned out they had a friend who was a specialized astrologer.

Weeks later, that person had sent me my Astrological Birth Chart.

When I started reading it, my brain exploded.

How did this person know so much about me if we had never even met?

I read it about 10 times. I was completely blown away.

That chart described things about me that I intuited inside but had buried under layers of "shoulds" and social masks.

It knew things that I hadn't allowed myself to recognize. It had stripped me completely bare inside.

When I spoke with her on Zoom and she started talking to me as if she knew me better than my own parents, everything clicked.

From that moment everything changed for me.

I embarked on a journey of curiosity: astrology, Human Design, Gene Keys, somatic practices, spirituality.

I researched my data over and over (from my logical engineer mind) to get to know myself a little better each day, feeling each piece of information from within to recognize if it was true for me or not.

Over time I began to discover (or rather, recognize) my real talents. My calling. My purpose. My blocks. The best way to feel peace from within.

And something magical started to happen:

When I allowed myself to be who I was, without masks or apologies, my life improved dramatically.

The chronic tension in my chest disappeared. The anxiety went down. My body could relax for the first time in years.

And that's when I started to attract exactly what I deserved.

Not because I was "manifesting" anything by force. But because when you stop pretending, you become a natural magnet for what is aligned with you.

Those tools helped me begin to align with my purpose. To accept myself as I am without needing to change anything. To fully understand my partner. To be more present and be a better father for my daughter. To communicate my feelings calmly and set healthy boundaries.

It completely changed my life.

But knowing who you are is not enough if your nervous system is still operating in survival mode.

I could read my birth chart 100 times. I could know my Human Design inside out. But if my body was still carrying 33 years of tension, fear and automatic programming, nothing was going to truly change.

So I had to do the hard work: reprogram my system from the ground up.

Clear all the junk I had accumulated. The limiting beliefs that told me:

The automatic patterns that made me react from fear, not from my truth.

I threw myself fully into somatic practices and subconscious reprogramming tools.

Breathwork, yoga, tapping etc. to release the accumulated tension in the body. Hypnotherapy and meditation to reprogram the deep beliefs I didn't even know I had.

Because it's not just about understanding who you are. It's about creating internal safety to allow yourself to be it.

That was the real change. Not just knowing myself, but freeing my body from autopilot and constant survival.

And I'm not going to be a hypocrite and tell you that my life is now all roses and everything is perfect. NO.

I still have challenges. I still face my blocks and fears daily. But now, with each passing day, I know a little more about who I am. And I know which path I need to walk.

Almost 6 years after those moments I decided that, even though it scared me, I felt I wanted to share everything I was learning with the world.

During all those years I kept coding, creating applications in a logical and structured way, solving problems; while continuing to advance in my discoveries.

That's why you're here reading this today.

After a lot of personal inquiry I understood that my greatest gift to the world was to create tools so that other people could also:

Because I spent 33 years pretending. And I saw how my life transformed completely when I stopped.